Why do I HATE going out and meeting with friends so much?

Nah there's nothing wrong with you at all. You're simply an introvert if you're not aware of that. I'm the same exact way as you but skilled in different areas such as you like to play the piano while I'm more into creative arts and cooking. We share similarities in video games, prefer to be alone and actually enjoy it. Trust me there's a lot more people like you and me out there. There's nothing wrong with you at all. I have a friend who wanted to meet up today and eat together but like you I didn't respond back and blamed it on never getting a text from him. Sorry but I wanted to eat alone. I'm not sad or mad I just like my alone time although I was never heavily bullied or physically hurt. It's just how some people are born to be.

The bullying and exclusion have formed the personality you have now and it probably isn't who you WOULD have been if you had good experiences with people early on. I also don't like groups and am a lone wolf so I understand. What you may find works best for you in life is having ONE friend that you can just be you with. You may not meet this kind of person until you are out of your teen years. There are lots of others just like you out there and someday you will find someone as laid back and peaceful inside that enjoys just sitting and enjoying where ever you are. Don't worry. It will happen someday and as years go by you may change best friends a few times. People move away or change. That's normal life. Just explain to your parents that your comfortable on your own and don't want to be around drug culture and teens looking for trouble.

You're being too hard on yourself. Some people just really enjoy being alone.

It sounds like you might need some professional counseling to help you talk through this. It's often available for little or no fee through health insurance. Almost everyone needs counseling at some point in their lives. It's possible that you need to work through the bullying, exclusion, etc. That you have unfortunately experienced. It's difficult to work for some people to successfully work through this type of treatment without professional guidance. Please remember that you are a treasure of immeasurable value in the eyes of God. He loves you more than you can imagine unconditionally. Now is a great time to develop a close relationship with Him if you don't have one already. The book of John is a great place to start. Best wishes.

There's nothing wrong with being an introvert. Within reason.

It's unhealthy to never socialize at all.

You can pursue your interests in ways that put you around people who share them, and develop more meaningful relationships. This gets easier as an adult.

But if you do some things with people, things you like, or sometimes things you don't hate, it will get your parents off your back, and give you more interest and sometimes friendship.

I think you're just scared of getting hurt because you have been so much in the past. I was bullied too and because of it I don't like being out in public. I like going to hang out with friends, though. I'm a natural extrovert, but I have become less outgoing because of being bullied. You're also an introvert because you like being By yourself better and just doing your own thing. There's nothing wrong with you. In fact, I think you seem like a cool person. It's Great that you're super laid-back and I like just going to grocery stores for fun and playing piano. And I'm really laid-back also. As long as you're happy, just keep being you.
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