I'm done. I'm just done. I work insanely hard everyday just to maintain B's in all my classes. Everyday, nonstop. Nothing changes. All my so called 'friends' wouldn't really care if I was there or not. Some actually wish I would just leave. None of them include me in anything they do outside of school. I used to hangout with some outside of school, but I quit doing that because it was always me asking them if they want to hangout, never them. A few people do try to include me in things, I know it's just bc they feel bad for me, but I just end up pushing them away. I just sit at home all day playing fking minecraft and terraria because I have nothing better to do, and I don't enjoy anything else really. Hate sports, have played a lot in the past. I basically have no hobbies. I have tried changing. I tried changing everything about me. The foods I eat, the cloths I wear, how I act, what video games I play. Nothing changed. I hate my life. I'm at a standstill for what seems like will be my whole life. Don't tell me to talk to someone because I'm way passed that. Don't tell me things will get better, because I want it to get better now as I feel like I'm completely missing out on everything in highschool. In the direction I'm going, I'll be the next kid that is announced at my school that has passed away.
Why does my life suck?
Talk to a school counselor about this
As a friend, maintain a friendship takes more effort than this asking how are you. You need to go down to see and be there and into their lives. Remind them of your availability. People do not understand you when you like having your own space to think like an introvert.
I agree with comment above. Try to remind your friends about your availability. It's also possible that what you're saying is just you're perception of things. But if you are completely certain that the people you say are your friends don't enjoy your company that much I would recommend trying to hang out with new people, or maybe try to get closer to someone you already know. Is there anyone or a few friends that you like or that makes you happy? Try to be around them more. I'd also suggest trying new things. Not sports but just maybe new hobbies. Try to keep a brighter mind mabye talk to someone about how you feel. I will not tell you that things will get better, but they can.