My whole life I've always gotten this weird feeling I get with people, it feels like I get this feeling throughout my body and mind. And whenever I was alone this feeling was relieved. I never noticed of this feeling until recently. And going from a somewhat popular guy to a loner and skipping school for months and doing nothing but playing Minecraft in his room alone for several months, I've learned to enjoy liking the feeling of being alone better. When I'm in my room gamin' out, I don't really talk or do anything social, I barely talked to my mom. So now I kinda developed everything I do when I'm alone, and put it into that social "mode". Now the feeling is 100% worse and feels like social anxiety sometimes. Especially in big groups and stuff, I never used to be like that at all… Now it's kind of hard making friends, so I'm thinking about saying **** this place once and for all and move in with my dad in British Columbia. I can't handle it here, I've been trying to be more social lately, sometimes I'm good at it, but usually no. That feeling has escalated to much to a point where I'm quiet all the time around people here. I feel like moving back to B.C (where I used to live 4 years ago) and start hanging out with my (still) best friends there it would be better. So I'm pretty sure I'm doing that anyways. But I want to learn how to get this feeling away and get rid of social anxiety. Because it's pretty stupid.
I've always felt different around people? Social Anxiety: P?
Thank you for reaching out for help. It sounds like you have been through a lot lately. Social anxiety can be scary and frustrating, but it is possible to stop it. The thoughts that you think dictate the feelings that you feel. If you think negative, scary, or panicky thoughts, your brain releases chemicals that make you feel anxiety and irrational thoughts. If you think positive thoughts, your brain releases chemicals that make you feel happy and calm. To overcome social anxiety, you must change your thought patterns.
For the next week, carry around a small notebook and write down every negative or scary thought that you have when you are out in public. This will help you to see how many of your thoughts are negative. The average person thinks a negative thought every two minutes! Then, after writing down the negative or scary thought, immediately write down or say out loud a positive thought. Come up with a list of positive thoughts that you can tell yourself: "I'm OK." "I'm going to get through this." "Today is a good day because I'm choosing that it will be." "I'm strong." "I'm beautiful/handsome." "This too will pass, and I will get through this."
Additionally, check out the following 99 coping skills, which can help you to refocus your thoughts on positive things: http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/DiscoverIt/Articles/Pages/99-Coping-Skills.aspx
Sometimes it can help to talk to someone and tell them about what you are going through. Please know that there are people who can and will help you with what you are going through. You may want to consider talking with a counselor at a hotline. There are many hotlines that are 24/7 and will work with you and situations like yours. Some even have email and/or chat if you would prefer. Hopefully, you will continue to reach out!