I just want to be like everyone else?

I want to. I want to be pretty. I want to date. I'm 13, when i go into high school i won't change any. And my life will always suck but i don't want it to. I want to be normal. My friend became popular and won't talk to me, my only friend isn't like me, and the rest are the "losers" in school and they act like they are 5. Everyday i have a headache from them. Id rather be alone but why can't i be normal? I play minecraft and the server has a library. I just want help. Help, company, people who care, so i write my feeling in stories using names of others. Now everyone thinks i'm weird and emo. I'm. I cut myslef, i wrote stories on it. I wanted to be a moderator but now people think i'm desperate because i tried so hard to be one. My only friend is that server, i have no real life. I atleast want to be loved by that minecraft server. How? Nobody likes me in both worlds. I want to be a writer, a librarian on the server. But i'm not accepted. Should i just tell people why i'm weird on the server?

Middle school was one of the toughest times for me, but like me, anyone could tell you it gets much better. I promise you when you start high school you'll meet new people and have new experiences and none of this will matter anymore. In my opinion you need to stop caring what other people think of you, be yourself and you'll find yourself surrounded by people who genuinely like you for you and not who you try to be. It's okay to be alone and that's never a permanent state, it's just a phase. Take the time to notice the people around you who do care for you because nobody has no one. You're no different from anyone else and you are normal. As soon as you can start loving yourseld you will find people who love you. Best wishes

Don't be the same be diffrent don't take the easy way out
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Be confident of yourself. If those friends left you for popularity, let them go because they are not worth it. Don't cut yourself anymore, instead, go out and make some friends. Don't keep thinking of being someone else you can't be, because everyone is unique and special in their own way. You're probably just going through a phase and will get over it. Stay strong!